Are you busy God? Cause I have a few questions if you have the time.
Like why did you have to take my beautiful, charismatic daughter Courtney so early? Why did you let her addiction to alcohol be stronger than her will to live? Why didn’t she listen to the doctor or the rest of us?
I Know she tried and tried and struggled and struggled. As I read some things she wrote, I can tell she was very sad inside, she knew she had a problem. She would have given anything to get better, but could never get the monkey off her back completely. There are people I want to blame, I feel if they had treated her differently, she would still be here.
I don’t think she knew she would die. I know she knew she was very sick. It scared her. She had slipped up. why did this slip up put her over the edge? Were you too busy God to see how she was drowning? Or is this the way you saved her?
Are you busy God, cause I need answers. The pain I feel is physically debilitating. I can’t believe it's true. I cannot believe I will never talk with her again. Never hear her laugh. Never hear her call me mom. Now no one calls me mom now.
God do you see her? Have you met her? If you have, you would not forget her! She is memorable with her large personality, infectious laugh and a great beauty inside and out.
Are you busy God? If you could take a moment and please tell her I miss her. That I am heartbroken, but I am not mad at her. Please tell her I love her and always have. That I feel I should have done more, but I believe she knew how hard I tried to help her beat the addiction too.
God, I know your busy, There is so much tragedy that happens every day. It must be hard to take care of everyone. But please know how much I would appreciate it if you took a moment and let my little girl know that she is special. That everyone loves her and misses her. That she made a difference in so many lives. That her Mom loves her to the moon and back. Forever!
Thanking you in advance. If you are not too busy God.
In memory of Courtney Elizabeth Michaels
January 7, 1991 - June 4, 2019